STOP GOING ON ABOUT THE FUCKING 5:2 DIET IT PROMOTES DISORDERED EATING AND MAKES YOU VERY BORING SHUT UP NO ONE CARES OMFG.
Don’t want to get up.
Don’t want to eat.
Don’t want to see my homestart lady.
Don’t want to be Mummy today.
|<b>||Ed:</b> You know what's great? Clean eating. Clean eating would solve ALL your problems. No more chocolate for yo- ooh! Chocolate! EAT IT ALL UNTIL YOU FEEL SICK, FAT BITCH.<p><b>PND:</b> Well, you're a shitty Mother. You can't even look after yourself, never mind a baby.<p><b>Depression:</b> What's the point in even trying to be happy?<p><b>Anxiety:</b> The baby might be dead. Is he breathing? Is the room cool enough? Is his sleeping bag the right size?<p><b></b> Distorted body image: Yep. It's official, you have 20 chins as a direct result of bingeing all day.<p>|
do you ever wonder if anyone reads your blog like everyday just to check on you
Nothing quite like a full on binge day. :(
excuse me while I spend my afternoon trying not to puke up many teacakes.
So after last night’s guilt (I didn’t binge!) I was ready to give up this morning, but to my surprise, when I came downstairs and saw those teacakes, I felt no desire whatsoever to eat them. In fact I felt slightly sick at the thought. I wanted fruit bread and an apple, so that is what I had. The triggery teacakes are STILL there. This is the longest a box of them has survived in my house…
Anonymous asked: Obesity is a huge problem in America and health should come before self esteem.
I understand that its a problem, but don’t you think they’re both linked? Generally people with obesity have low self esteem which can result in other problems such a depression making them feel even more worthless. Moreover if they felt horrible and worthless some would turn to emotional eating and others may turn to deadly eating disorders which add attrition health risks. Also when they feel worthless, unmotivated and horrible (all because of their low self esteem) they will never be able to make the final push to get them out of obesity and into a healthy weight range where they can be healthier and live longer. Without promoting high self esteem you will not only have a generation of people who hate themselves and there for look for ways to destroy themselves, but also a generation of people with obesity who will most likely never be able to come down to a healthy weight. Loving yourself and your body doesn’t solve all your problems but trust me it solves a damn lot.
Just to add, surely someone who is obese, eating fresh food, and running marathons is healthier than someone who is a “healthy” weight, lives off frozen meals and never exercises?
Also, when I recieved treatment for my ED, I was told by several professionals that it is better to be obese and emotionally stable / not engaging in ED behaviours, than underweight and fasting / abusing laxatives / binge eating etc.
Dammit my boob is sore and lumpy again.
ANOTHER trip to the DR. Fun timezzz
I don’t think I can handle the guilt of eating like this. Self hatred is very strong tonight.
strong urge to binge.
There is a lot of scary food in the house.
I have eaten past being comfortably full and feel the “fuck it” attitude coming on as I have “failed” to follow the guidelines of intuitive eating.
I am doubting the effectivness of intuitive eating and feel that if I eat all the food, I can start over on my old routine of “being healthy” tomorrow.
That is how I feel.
- baby logic:
baby at 8am: I NEED TO GET UP RIGHT NOW
baby at 9am: I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP RIGHT NOW
anabites said: I found they increased my appetite. Mind you, they also made me suicidal and nearly got me admitted to the psych ward so you...
I’ve told everyone at work that I’m going to fat camp. :) :) :)
- I have run out of time!
I leave tomorrow and will be out of touch for at least 30 days, although I may be able to sneak my phone when I am allowed...
- Anonymous asked:We're all really proud of you, Elizabeth, and supporting you.
Thank you! I am legitimately overwhelmed with support right now. Thank you guys so much!