sick to death of my dependence, fighting food to find transcendence…
why cant i have creepy followers who ask me questions about everything
I know I shouldn’t be offended because people don’t want to be triggered…
Still. ONE bad day.
I Love Becky.
BMI 24.2. 5LBs off being overweight. This needs to change now. Restricting.
You don’t understand, my BMI is so close to 25, I;ve gained so much, I’m so big and everyone can see. I afraid, genuinely, shockingly, paralysingly afraid of gaining. I can NOT risk it anymore. I have to stop eating. It’s the only way to stop the number going up and up and up.
You don’t get it. I’m FAT and that is simply unacceptable to the bully in my head.
I NEED to lose weight. Fast.
amazing what a difference a few hours can make. I miss being empty.
did you ever realize that you could just get up right now and start walking somewhere far far away and never come home again
When it’s difficult - it’s the most difficult thing in the world.
Right now I’m at the low point that comes straight after a binge.
Fun times :/
chocolate ice-cream sundae. Yup.
I ate it. Now I want to die.
Ok, so recently I’ve not been about much. IDK if anyone’s even noticed to be honest, but that’s not really important. Here’s the important thing:
I’ve been undergoing something of a revolution. I started treatment for Bulimia in June and since then my mindset has slowly but surely began to shift to where I find myself today…
Just 6 sessions and I can state:
- I no longer compensate for my binges - either by purging, laxative misuse, exercise or starving.
- I no longer count my calories.
- I’m learning to accept that my body doesn’t hate me and it needs food to function correctly.
- I’m learning that I can resist the urge to binge.
- I can eat fear food without bingeing on it.
I think one of the most important things I’ve remembered though is that recovery really is a process. If you look at all the things you need to change to overcome an ED all in one go it overwhelms you and feels impossible, but with the support of a good therapist and understanding friends and family, it really is possible.
Look at what I have achieved in 6 weeks. I still have 14 sessions left, I can’t wait to see who I am by Christmas.
OMG - It’s National Pride.
James Bond, Mr Bean, JK Rowling, Mary Poppins, “Jerusalem”, Paul Mcartney, The Queen, Pink Floyd. Hell - THE INVENTOR OF THE INTERNET.
Nicely done London.